AT SOME POINT

AT SOME POINT

I guess at some point in your life you stop stressing about what people think of you. I mean, it’s never total because a part of us always wants some validation (maybe from just a few people or institutions), but largely you don’t care much for how people tell of you in their stories — hero or villain. You become less concerned about those who have blocked you or muted notifications from you, those who don’t rate your work or those who continually voice that you’re making all wrong choices like life is some test that they’ve already passed. Those people who once said you’re going places but now say they miss the old you.

I have a friend from Facebook — Hymar. Hymar was one of those guys that rose to a sustained fame within many circles on the social platform. But Hymar is the ‘modest’ prince of controversy, and quite a number of people who were ‘feeling the boy’ are very indifferent about him and his. Some you might now say, now hate his guts. But that’s it, he has guts. One could say he’s the social media version of Buhari, and despite loathing the man himself, Hymar is very much like him — Continually winning while ‘haters’ hate.

At some point in your life you’re Hymar and all you want to do is satisfy your need to win, and that’s what you do.

At some point in your life, you care less about what your thoughts are about certain people. It’s never total because through life there would always be those dear to you. You stop caring about the people you blocked or muted notifications from. You stop intermittently unblocking them so you can check in on their WhatsApp status. You don’t care if they have audio money or something you can actually bank. You stop beating yourself up about how much you check in on them and how they never do the same, or even how they never paid back that loan, that money that meant so much to you.

This point in your life would pass as every season must. There is not some great lesson to learn, at least nothing greater that you have learnt or the many others that you would. It is something fleeting — a hiatus. But you do something that is important — you live! You win today, maybe you lose tomorrow. And it’s okay, because it’s all life — God’s social experiment. This season would come and go, and like harmattan, will come again.

Ultimately, Jerry Chi (another Facebook friend) puts it best, “I don’t care if I’m a hero or villain in your story. I don’t care for that. But the least you can do is give my character the range that it deserves”.

At some point that’s all that it is. Give me the fucking range my character deserves!